the storm “bee”fore the calm

the storm “bee”fore the calm

Hello friends, and Happy Sunday!

I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus for the past few months, and I’m thankful for the opportunity to now share with you why.

For those of you that may not know, my husband is a disabled combat veteran.  He served our country for nearly 18 years, and was deployed in a leadership position for one year to Iraq in 2005-2006.  After nearly 10 years of trying to navigate the challenges of the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual wounds he incurred as a result of active combat, he retired from the only career and way of life he had ever known in July of 2015.

At the time, we were unsure (and a little scared) of what civilian life would be like for him.  What would he do with his time?  How would he identify himself?  What did the future hold?  And the scariest, and most uncertain, question of all….how would he relate to a civilian society that (thankfully) had no way of understanding his unique and vast challenges, triggers, and responses to seemingly “normal” situations… when on the outside he appeared to be a very healthy, strong, capable 35 year old man?

Little did we know at the time, God and the angels were going to change our lives in a huge way, and in what seemed like a dream on a late September evening…we were jolted wide awake and catapulted onto the path of spiritual enlightenment.

Although, as many of you have also experienced, our friends and family didn’t understand or readily accept our new path…it truly was a magical time for us.  We both began to heal from deep and lifelong emotional wounds, our physical health was better than ever, our marriage was quartz crystal solid, and we were able to shine light and share unconditional love in some very unique and dark places.  At my husband’s suggestion, I created ANGEL BEE, and began sharing my gifts and the truth and knowledge we had been so blessed to acquire. We had something neither of us had previously experienced…peace that surpasses all understanding.

Fast forward to 3 weeks ago, when my husband walked out into oncoming traffic in front of our home.

Thankfully, it was at a time of day when traffic was slow, and the oncoming car saw him and was able to stop to allow him to make it safely to the sidewalk.  It makes me physically ill to think what may have happened had he not been surrounded by angelic protection.  Archangel Michael…I am grateful beyond words.

When my husband returned home and shared with me what had happened, and I saw the terror  and despair in his eyes, the confusing and difficult daily life we had been experiencing since just before the holidays, with seemingly no explanation for, began to paint a picture that, in that moment, rocked us to our core.

You see, a few months ago my husband began acting very strange and completely out of character.  He became intolerant, aggressive, reclusive, and began to distrust everyone…including me.  He became something I had never witnessed outwardly in him before…afraid.

And when a trained warrior, protector, and hero becomes afraid…he gets pretty pissed off about it.

I had no idea what was happening.  Life as I knew it was being turned upside down and that quartz crystal solid marriage I was telling you about began to fall apart.  I was heartbroken, confused, lonely…and I began to become angry too.  I prayed faithfully…I cried out to God and the angels asking for guidance…I did everything I knew to do, including attempting to use my gifts to look inside his energy field.  And for the first time in our life together, I drew a blank.  A complete and total blank.  And then I got scared…really scared.

Why couldn’t I see?  Why weren’t the angels telling me exactly what was happening and how to fix it?  Dammit, I wanted an answer other than “show compassion and trust us”!  How are you supposed to show compassion to a grizzly bear?  Had the angels lost their energetic minds!

The answer to that question is, no they have not.  And the unconditional love of the creator and an entire legion of angels is infinite and everlasting.

Of this, I am certain.

Because in that moment, staring into the terrified eyes of my divine counterpart, twin flame, and best friend…a depth of compassion and unconditional love came over me and filled my heart in a way for which I don’t have adequate words.

After hugging him tightly, tears filling both of our eyes, I promised Caleb that everything would be okay and that we would allow the angels to guide us.  I gave him my word that I would be with him every step of the way, and reminded him that God’s unconditional love is the most powerful healing force in the entire universe.  I’m not sure in that moment if he believed me entirely, but we asked the angels again for answers and healing…and headed to the Emergency Room.

See, the strangest thing that had begun happening regularly during this time was that Caleb had started to run directly into things and hit his head.  And I don’t mean just an occasional, clumsy bump on the head or stub of the toe that all of us have experienced at one time or another.  I’m talking, my 6ft 3in, 200 pounds of muscle husband was walking full force, with the entire size and power of his body, into wood support beams in our basement and under our deck….regularly.  He was slamming his head into the metal tailgate of our SUV…regularly.

And to understand just how odd this is, you’d have to know Caleb.  One of the benefits of having a combat veteran for a husband is that they have a hyperawareness of their surroundings, and yours, at all times.  Which really comes in handy when you’re up in the clouds most the time, like me:)  I’ve been protected from countless major and minor accidents because of not only his finely tuned awareness to his own surroundings, but to mine as well.

So, when he looked into my eyes and told me he had lost all spacial awareness while walking to the store and was now having difficulty putting together words and sentences…and that he was scared and in incredible pain, I knew I had to get him to a doctor immediately. I picked up the phone and called our local VA, where his doctor was familiar with his service connected injuries.

She said to me, “Mrs. Riggs, I don’t want to scare you, but I need you to get Caleb to the Emergency Room immediately.  His brain could be bleeding.”


My heart pounded in my chest.

I couldn’t find air.

I couldn’t find the floor underneath my feet.

I hung up the phone, looked up, and, in a small voice, said…

“Please help…”

And, in that moment of complete surrender to the divine…we were set on a path that insists that I share this with you today, and that I ask my fellow lightworkers to join me in shining a light and extending compassion to those who desperately need it…the men and women that have risked and been willing to give everything…up to and including their lives…so that we may have the freedom and opportunity to walk as lightworkers and awakened beings, with the power and rights to bring about the changes necessary so that a new world is created in which we will never again have to send our loved ones off to war….and in which those we love the most will not have to live with the effects of war.

Thankfully, Caleb’s brain was not bleeding.

Thankfully, God and the angels will use the darkest moments of our lives to wrap us in infinite and unconditional love and guide our paths, moment by moment, and give purpose to our pain if we will allow it.

Through  angelic guidance and channeled messages, and a team of doctors and clinicians working together, my husband has been diagnosed with Traumatic Brain Injury that has been aggravated by Degenerative Disk Disease in his spine, which has compressed the nerves in his neck and disrupted the signals being transmitted from one part of his brain to another.

Currently, he cannot drive or be left alone.  He has extreme difficulty regulating his blood pressure, which exacerbates his mood swings and nightmares.  He has a near constant dumping of adrenaline into his blood stream and debilitating anxiety.  We are now working with a team that includes doctors and clinicians from polytrauma, neurology, physical therapy, speech and language pathology, and mental health…

and that team is headed by a loving creator and legion of angels that are guiding our every step so that no weapon formed against us will prosper.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to share this with you, and for your compassion.  I believe Kryon, as channeled by Lee Carroll, says it best…

“The future is a beautiful place where human beings are filled with compassion and look to spirit for guidance.”

To all of the men and women of our armed forces, I want to say two things…

Thank you.

There is hope.

To all of my fellow lightworkers, I want to say this….

Thank you.

Continue shining your lights  and extending the love and compassion of the creator, even in places where you never thought you would.

That is how we create a world without war, where no human being has to live with the ramifications of it.

Blessings, Love, and Light,


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